彼时无人生还

真是何苦在死活睡不着的晚上胡乱听歌助眠，风声雨声猿鸣声，凄凄切切不止，四年岁月忽然消失得不见踪影。强颜欢笑也好，粉饰太平也好，在半夜止不住的胡思乱想里都又脆又薄，只有愚蠢和无聊经久不衰，历久弥坚。

还记得当年的大乔小乔，那姑娘已经多大了呢，变声了吗？还记得当年想北上的想法，这三年一过，却也只剩了个乱糟糟的旅行计划，几次挣扎在泡汤的边缘。咬牙切齿地痛恨过香港，诅咒过学校，恨得一败涂地，败得忘记那恨的来龙去脉。旧的人生匆匆谢幕，新的世界迟迟不愿登场，空荡荡的舞台是冷冷的雨夜。

科恩说，万物皆有缝隙，让光线穿透。白夜普照亡魂，将不存在的黑光留在活人心中。

夜幕降下来 Shadows are falling
一整天我都在这儿 and I’ve been here all day
酷热难眠里 It’s too hot to sleep
时间飞奔而过 time is running away
心已变成钢铁 Feel like my soul has turned into steel
晒伤疤痕仍在 I’ve still got the scars that the sun didn’t heal
更无力去往别处 There’s not even room enough to be anywhere
天色未暗，夜已不远 It’s not dark yet, but it’s getting there

我所有的仁慈 Well, my sense of humanity
冲进了下水道 has gone down the drain
每件美丽的事 Behind every beautiful thing
背后总有些苦痛 there’s been some kind of pain
她寄来封客气的信 She wrote me a letter and she wrote it so kind
写下心中的苦恼 She put down in writing what was in her mind
而这却与我何干？I just don’t see why I should even care
天色未暗，夜已不远 It’s not dark yet, but it’s getting there

去过伦敦城 Well, I’ve been to London
也去过巴黎梦 and I’ve been to gay Paree
也曾跟随着河水 I’ve followed the river
一路入海洋 and I got to the sea
到过谎言王国的底层 I’ve been down on the bottom of a world full of lies
不再从谁眼中寻找什么 I ain’t looking for nothing in anyone’s eyes
有时重担要将我压垮 Sometimes my burden seems more than I can bear
天色未暗，夜已不远 It’s not dark yet, but it’s getting there

这不是我本意 I was born here
而我在此出生与死去 and I’ll die here against my will
也许看似常奔波 I know it looks like I’m moving
但我知道，我从未移动一步 but I’m standing still
神经空白麻木 Every nerve in my body is so vacant and numb
已记不起来此的初衷 I can’t even remember what it was I came here to get away from
更听不见一声祈祷 Don’t even hear a murmur of a prayer
天色将暗，夜已不远 It’s not dark yet, but it’s getting there